Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Turn The Frown Upside Down

Okay yesterday was not my finest hour. First bad news of the days was that I did not get my part-time job that I wanted. I was okay with it. I prayed that Heavenly Father would do what was best for me. I know that is what he did. That job would have been hard to do with my full job right now. I would have worked 8-4 then 6-10 every day. However, I really wanted it. It was a good job that I could have eventually just worked for them. So I brush that off thinking that my momma would have been so proud.

So I leave work to go to my doctor to see where my follicles are. Now I should tell you on Friday, there were three follicles. So I go to the doctor...more bad news. He looks at me and says "Sorry Amanda there is nothing." NOTHING!! I can not believe it. So I take that news okay. I am a little upset but I brush it off. Again I think my mother would be proud! She has been getting onto to me about being hormonal and freaking out to much.

So I head home thinking about the whole situation. By the way at the doctors he gave me two choices and he wants my decision soon so we can prepare for it next month. I will get into this more later. It is long and complicated. So it will be in a new blog another day. So then I get home to my baby, my dog. If anyone really knows me, they know this dog is my life. I love her more than anything. I mean she has her own insurance and dental. Anyway. I get home and she is depressed. She is really not acting herself. So I take her outside to play to only find out that she has started her period, which is not fun.

Then I get my check in the mail to find out that it is $220 less than usually which is a total shock considering I am suppose to get a raise. So that's it! My last straw! I freak! Call my mother. I get calmed down and she reminds me that it is really not that bad of a day. That I did not lose my job, no one died, I do not have some horrible major illness, and Heavenly Father has blessed me on beyond belief.

Thanks mom....cause your are always right. life is good and if these are my biggest trials, I will take them any day.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

It's one of those things you never would think it would happend to you but it did

So today something that I never thought would happen, did happen! And No I am not pregnant. So as everyone knows I work at a middle school with teenagers. So today during lunch, the teenagers were in my room eating lunch. I was sitting there talking to them as usual, when one of the students grabbed the water bottle off my desk. I asked why was the student taking my water, when he pointed to another student and said "Look Miss..He is choking." At this point I look at one of my students who is clutching their throat turning purple. I look around the room and realize I am the only adult. So I calmly ask the student can you cough or talk, at which he shook his head no. I instruct one of my students to call the nurse. I should say this, the events that took place after this I feel are truly from Heavenly Father. I know I could not have done this exactly without him guiding my hands.

So I go behind my student, tilt him forward, and proceed to do the Heimlich manuever. I do one thrust which causes the student to choke up food. I ask the student again if he can talk. He shakes his head no. So I proceeded to do two more thrust causing the student to vomit and choke up more food. After this the student could finally talk. By this time, the nurse arrives and I am grateful that the student is able to talk.

So thanks to my mother who always did her job to teach me first aid, my friend Adreinne who gave me a CPR class for my birthday, and Heavenly Father for allowing me to be an aid in his hands and not allowing a tradegy to take place.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

This is Dedicated to....

my new mother! That's right, I have a new mother. I don't have a picture of her right now, but I can tell you that I am named after her (my middle name). Why do you ask , I have a new mother? Well I will tell you of the event that took place at 4:50 p.m. that lead to this huge decision.

So I get off at work around 4 or 4:30. I have a LONG drive home on back country roads. So usually I call my (she who must not be named). However, within five minutes she usually has to go. So why would I think today is any different. So this is how it went and from here on out (she who must not be named) will be called ...neglectful
We join the scene five minutes into the conversation


Me: So anyways, what are you doing tonight?
Neglectful: I don't know, Anyways, your dad just got home and I want to go to talk to him.
Me: What?!! Why?!! Can you pretty pretty please stay on the phone just 13 minutes more. Just 13 minutes. Please. I miss and love you so much. I just want a little company. Milton is gone and I have no friends. You are it...just a little while longer

Neglectful: NO!!! Gosh you are annoying. Why did I have you. Go call your Aunt (now my new mom). Maybe she can love the unworthy. Click.




I know!! All of you can pick your mouth off the ground. See the abuse I put up with. Can I help it that I love her so much that I crave everything I can get. So I decided to call my new mom sobbing uncontrollable to tell her of the abuse I have endured at the hand of her sibling.




You know what she told me. (She who must not be named) does not know how good she had it. I would love to have a daughter like you that would call me on the way home. That wants to spend as much time as see can with me. She does not know how good she has it. I will be your new mom.
So thanks new mom for consoling me and giving me the bright idea to write this blog to release my deep down buried feelings.

I know, I know! All of you are in shock and horror. However, try not to judge to hashly. I hear (she who must not be named) is hitting the sauce.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

BFN

For all those who are not in the infertility world that means a BIG FAT NEGATIVE. I am not pregnant, but really I am good with it. The doctor is going to give me some medicine to bring Aunto Flo and then I start Clomid again. Thanks for everyone's support. Especially you Lynsie!!! It is always great to have someone get excited with. I am so grateful to have someone to talk about this with who understands because if you are not going through this...you can not possible understand. I feel like we (Lynsie and I) are going to be blessed really soon!!! I can just feel it.

Other than that, Life is just going on normal. I am sick tonight. So I will probably have something easy for dinner because Milton is at school, take a relaxing bath, and then hit the hay!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

In Case You Were Wondering...

I do not know if I am pregnant. But let me buffer it with this....I DO NOT think for a second that I am. I am not having any symptoms and my period has always been screwy. I took a test a week ago but it was negative. However Aunt Flo is still not here! So I called my doctor and he said to take a test in the morning and if it's negative he will give me medicine to make her rear her ugly head. Then we will try again next month. At first, I was bummed when that there is a BIG possibility that I am not preg, but now I am okay. I have a good life and I am grateful for everything I have blessed with. I am grateful that I have had time with my husband and a chance to get to know eachother.

Anyways, we are back from Utah. (We went to Utah, in case you did not know). We said goodbye to Milton's parents. They are going to Samoa for 18 months. We will miss them! They are so excited for them though. They are going on their mission and have wanted to go forever. Anyways, not much else to report. I feel awful tonight. I feel really sick. Uggggg! Anyways, I hope I am not coming down with anything.